Hard things for me:

1. Admit my weakness This is really hard for me. It’s hard to admit that I get lonely, sad and sometimes I don’t like myself.( inside or out) I can’t say that the scars on my thighs are made by me and a razor blade

2. Share my feelings “I love you” ah, what a hard thing to say. I think I’ve once  drunk told my BF that I like him. Can’t say it sober. Also I do my best to hide my tears. (He has never seen me cry.)

3. Explain my thoughts and feelings Sometimes I get really anxious without any reason, I don’t know why, and that makes it hard to explain. It seems to bother other people.

4. Being proud I hardly ever show anyone my drawings, paintings or anything I’ve done. I doubt myself alot. I hate it when I’m being compared to others, cause I’m not trying to be better than someone else or the same. So I’m just scared  that people won’t like my work cause someone elses is “better.”

Those are probably the hardest things for me, there are other things too but those are the worse. Does these thing make it impossible to live with me? Care for me? Do I seem so cold that noone can love me?

Yes I get bruises too

~Gremlin